How much someone weighs is a real issue in today's society. It's a very taboo subject, one not broached by many because to admit that you have a problem is a weakness and it's not deemed cool to talk about weight (it makes people uncomfortable), but babycake, everybody see it anyway. We not bliiind. With that in mind I'm just going to go for it. I'd like to put a disclaimer out that I am a confident person who likes myself immensely. I think I am beautiful inside and outside the way God intended me to be and confident. I have talents and a lot of people like me in spite of my flaws; however, I am struggling with my weight.
Okay, so real-talk here...and I'm not looking for sympathy or fishing for compliments or lies. I don't want them. Brandi imma smack you if you tell me I look awesome one more time (love you), but dude...seriously! I got fat...corpulent...plump - however you package it, it's going on inside my body. I stepped on my scale last night and totally freaked out. I don't really know when it happened. I've noticed that my clothes don't fit - as in "I can't wear that anymore" don't fit. I feel gigantically uncomfortable in my skin. What made me step on the scale in the first place was a picture taken of me and the girls last week. I love the picture with those lovely ladies...but who is that in my clothes? I don't recognize her. I know it's me because I have amazing hair and that's my hair...um, and I was wearing that outfit, but mama mia...baby gained some poundage. There's a thin person under there begging to come out. My face is so...puffy. It looks like someone put an air hose in my mouth and blew me up. I don't look like myself (or at least how I view myself). I look like the person who ate me. It's not really a laughing matter, either. In all honesty, I'm pretty disappointed in myself. So instead of sulking in the doldrums and becoming depressed and turning to food for comfort, thus causing the vicious cycle to bountifully increase my derierre, I choose to take charge, become proactive, or rather retroactive, and get this weight off.
We all know the way it works...diet (hate that word) as in watching what I eat and making healthy choices, exercise, lots of water, counting calories, minimizing salt intake. There are tons of ways to do it. There are oodles of plans to choose from from fad diets and temporary "quick fixes" to the tried and true techniques that nobody wants to take the time to do. We live in such a fast food, fast paced, results right now society. Unfortunately it's the fast-food choices I made that helped me on my journey to Obese City. I want a lasting, albeit slow, weight loss because it is my true desire to be healthy. More than looking good, I want to feel good about myself, but don't let me fool you...I want to look good, as well. I'm used to being a cute little thing with these almost nonexistent dimples in my cheeks when I have that darling little lean face. So I'm totally out of my element.
As with any "Oh my God" moment, I have to assess the situation and ask myself what are the factors that got me here so I can change wrong behavior. It's all part of the process...figuring out what I'm doing wrong and make a conscious effort to do the right things, subsequently implementing changes for a healthy lifestyle. I know exactly what I've been doing wrong and vow to stop immediately. Y'all don't need a play by play here. It's easier said than done, but it's a challenge that I'm up for.
I realize there are right and wrong ways to go about anything, so I want to assure anyone who cares that I will be doing this the right way. It will be a slow process. I'll be proud some days, disappointed others. I'll be energized and cranky. It all comes with the territory. I realize that poundage comes off like it goes on, gradually, but I also know what to do to help myself.
For me, accountability is key. If you don't like this, don't read it. I'm sure there will be snarky comments made by fat and thin people alike, but it's my blog and I can say anything I want. You don't have to like it and you don't have to read it. This is for me, and for other people who are currently strugging with weight issues and are looking for inspiration, who want to make a life-altering change. I encourage anyone who is at an unhealthy weight to join me in talking to your doctor and getting on a healthy food and exercise plan that works for you. So raise your glass (of H2O) and here's to healthy living.
Here goes something!
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